OH MY GOD MY LIFE SUCKS SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!!!ANYONE LOOKIN FOR A ROOMIE OUT HERE IN CALI?:(

Mood: sad

Music: nothing

Last night I went to Mexico..Fun! Lots of whore bars haha with a bunch of hotties. I love hot woman hahaha. Damn hot strippers and good food. I didnt drink cept one fuzzy navel. Just walked around lookin at all the woman. hahah I see that no one is bidding on my shirt for sale:( lol ITS PRETTY.. ok I will write later

Mood: tired

Music: nightmare before x mas music

Went to sum odd bar last night where the girls can do what they want pretty much.Walking around naked and whatnot.It wasnt a strip club tho and there is not a fee to get in.Got drunk with sum friends AND DIDNT SLEEP. TOO MUCH TO DRINK I GUESS..lol

all i know is i got a phone number from what i remember to b a hot girl who worked there but, i was drunk so i have to go there again and see hahahha

Mood: sick

Music: 0

The other night I had the best sex I have had in a while hahhaa. Even though I must say the afterworks were negative such as fighting it was nice for a change.We both passed out right after. But we woke up and fought as usual...Its been a while so I am happy about it.lol.. So confused!

The more I think about it the more I get upset. Ebay is good.Some items sold for more than I would have ever thought and others didnt sell at all..Weird.My new sets up and its colorful lol ok I will write in here later when I have a more interesting life;)

Mood: ok

Music: kill bill music

sO FAR SO GOOD ON EBAY ITS AMAZING WHAT YOU PEOPLE WILL BUY;)!hahah yeah i am makin more than planned but, decided screw the hidays and get myself a car and a real job.But I still feel the need to see my family for xmas.:( who knows what will happen..... I will write in here later on tonight I just woke up and am going to go back to bed lmao

Mood: sleepy

Music: none

im sick of how i feel!im going to go to sleep hoping somthing new will happen tommorow that is positive and makes me feel better. I cleaned my whole room today and now it looks good and feels better.I figure that is the one thing in my life that I hva control over.... Nice to know that there are nice people out there in the world.I want to thank them

Mood: bleh

Music: nothin but wind

I woke up today int eh best of moods for no appearant reason it was the best feeling that I coultd have ever asked for.It only lasted like an hour though.After that I had A TERRIBLE DAY.All I want is to be happy why does that have to be so hard for me?I dont ask for alot or expect alot.I just hurt inside.I am starting to think that my only purpose here on earth is to hurt.I hate what this person has become...I hurt so bad for them and why?Why do I?Its not like they even feel bad at all for what they do or say or have said and done.Its so painful.Sorry for the shitty depressed emails..I hope that one of you will like the panties:) and you can ask me for more:) I would love that and also appreciate it.Holidays are sneeking up and I would love to see my family.

Ok first off my ebays doind ok but, I need your help lol its on the boards this is to get money to fly home for the holidays.

as for today..well i dont know why i woke up.my schedule is i go to bed early and wake up early and im depressed all day.im stuck in my life and dont know where to go.I NEED LOVE.i need to find me a person who will like me for who i am and accept what i do.Speakin of what i do@ i need to do more sets.im on a lookout for sumthin im not sure what it is.i need motivation in life:( Mood: sad Music: kill bill soundtack:)

This journal entry is to get into me the real person that I am.I am lonely inside.:( It seems like what I want is too much to ask for in life.I am searching for someone or something im not sure who or what yet.I want to go out and dance its been too long and I want to just feel appreciated.

On another note, I hate sounding all sad and depressed lol Halloween was good but, all the upcoming hollidays make me sad.I have no money to get the people I care about shit and I am lonely.My family is in cali and I wont be there I dont think.I love cai but I kinda miss em.Holidays like xmas and thanksgiving depress me.Im not sure what I will do this time around.I want to be happy.Anyone have a cure for my sadness?LEMME know....

Well I had a good time, it could abeen better but, I wont get into that.I got drunk alot and gambled and didnt want to come back here to cali.Im still sad about being back here I want to move to VEGAS!

I was out on the streets all night on the night of Halloween and man it was crazy!SO MUCH FUN!So many people drinkin and laughin and yellin all in costumes.I got a bunch of those free passes into clubs so I just checked em all out.Met a sg girl out there.Took pics of a few of the cool costumes that I saw. I won 100 in 5 minutes playin the wheel and blackjack and nickel slots.I didnt get to see the sharks or eat a seafood buffet.I plan to go there soon again to do the shit I didnt get to do.